“Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34
I’m writing this page some 2 years after Jude’s promotion with a fresh pair of eyes. For a long time, it was like a fog and I just couldn’t see because I was so caught up in initial grief. But on reflection, I am so grateful to God for giving us such a long stretch of time….120 days to enjoy life together doing the things we both loved, all wrapped up in the shelter of His wings.
It was such a joy to finally get Jude home and over this period God would continue to demonstrate His abundant blessing and grace. Jude, for the majority of that time, was in good shape. We still attended the Friday clinic and it was great to see how sometimes her levels were good that it turned out to be a short visit.
Space would not allow me to go into too much detail but as the months progressed, we had great weather. Even with covid restrictions firmly in place, Jude was able to enjoy the garden. We visited and walked in so many places like Murlough, Oxford Island, Bangor and even a challenging walk up Cave Hill, Belfast, with friends.
We cleared things with Damian and were able to travel back to England in May on the ferry for a week and visit family, which in itself was a miracle. Long walks, good food. I remember only on one occasion Jude having a nose bleed.
Over that time, we continued with regular prayer and communion and sent a number of videos out to friends with Jude in song, just wonderful. In addition, we went through a few good books.
We were also blessed with visits from a few close friends, mainly on a beautiful summer night outside as we were still being very careful due to Jude’s low immunity.
I’m so proud of Jude, she wanted to live, I wanted her to live, even though this life is just a vapour.
“Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom” Ps90:12
I know for sure I will pick things up with her in Glory forever- Thankyou LORD.
Prayer
Some people say, that we go on living, believing we may survive a serious illness without giving any thought to dying.
Father, I make no apologies about that. We simply walked in faith, taking hold of your precious promises that you still heal today, for You are the same yesterday, today & forever.
Thankyou LORD that we were able to spend quality time together and that was not taken for granted as we also appreciate not everybody is able to do that.
Father, I pray for those in similar situations where time appears limited and there still seems so much to live for.
Give abounding grace to all and even the time to make lasting memories
In Jesus’ Name, Amen
Jude Gray 